In Christ, the way I live—my manner of living—is changed from the inside out...living in Christ changes what it means to be alive. Living in Christ, I carry myself differently. I desire differently. I love differently. I greet pain and loss differently. I fail differently. I succeed differently. I part with the past differently. I respond to the present differently. I look to the future differently. In Christ, I hold time itself in a very different way.
Adam S. Miller, "An Early Resurrection", Deseret Book 2018
There's a different motivation, a different energy, a different aura, if you will, when Christ is the center of your life, your focus. I remember back on my mission, when Christ was the only reason for getting up and going to work, there was this feeling of, I don't want to say invincibility, but I felt like I could do anything with Christ with me. Invincibility implies making foolish choices so maybe that's not the word I'm thinking of. I was definitely safe and secure despite the goings on around me. I didn't fear.
Anyway, my point is, that I get caught up in living life and all the distractions that come with that. Responsibility becomes front and center, not just for myself, but now for my family. I need to provide for myself. I need to provide for my family. All of a sudden, and ashamedly so the way I've prioritized that, Christ hasn't been the only reason to get up and work.
Ever since my mission, I've struggled to find that balance. It's been difficult because to favor one thing has always been to neglect the other. It doesn't have to be, but that's something I needed to learn, and still learning.
I've always put that on myself when I should've let Christ carry that load. With my focus on Him, despite everything else under my stewardship, He will help me fulfill my responsibilities and I don't have to go it alone, like it's on me to succeed. I need to live in Christ. I'm still learning how to do this better. I have felt the difference when I don't.
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." - Matthew 6:33