“Many who are in a spiritual drought and lack commitment have not necessarily been involved in major sins or transgressions, but they have made unwise choices. Some are casual in their observance of sacred covenants. Others spend most of their time giving first-class devotion to lesser causes. Some allow intense cultural or political views to weaken their allegiance to the gospel of Jesus Christ. Some have immersed themselves in Internet materials that magnify, exaggerate, and, in some cases, invent shortcomings of early Church leaders. Then they draw incorrect conclusions that can affect testimony. Anywho have made these choices can repent and be spiritually renewed.”
Elder Quentin L. Cook, “Can Ye Feel So Now?”, General Conference, October 2012
When I read this, the sentence “others spend most of their time giving first-class devotion to lesser causes”, hit me hard. I said it before, that I use my disability as a crutch, an excuse, to not put forth more effort doing things. Mainly because it takes a lot of effort and energy to just exercise for 10 minutes and then I’m out of commission for 30 minutes. So, I tend to just sit and watch TV or movies because it’s easier.
Well, I know I need to change that. Or, at least, spend less time doing that and more time exercising and doing more important things. Little by little, I will change that until “most” of my time is spent doing important activities. It’s that whole time matrix table that I talked about yesterday from Dr. Covey.
Sometimes I need a swift kick in the pants to get moving. That’s why it’s so difficult to read Miracle of Forgiveness sometimes. It’s hard to hear what I need to do better. Then I think about what it would be like to see the Savior face to face. He won’t demean me by any stretch but I will definitely be feeling inadequate and “natural”.
I also realize that making unwise choices is part of mortality. Nobody is perfect. Christ came to help the sick and afflicted, both physically and spiritually. We all need the Doctor. The point is, our first aid is the gospel. I may be bleeding all over, but it’s not because I have a serious injury, but more because I am full of little cuts and bruises, so to speak. I need a lot of bandaids.